`yijunn. Sunday, July 30, 2006
you know i thought i was through with crying about striping. but then i read michelle's blog. i read our batch letters. i read all the letters from everyone. and i realised i wasn't. i never thought i would miss it so much. after seoul garden on friday night, michelle and i were rather emotionless. maybe it was because we didnt want friday to feel any different from thursday. but well we're CLs no more ):i think goodness i'm going to print all the entries about striping out!
aileen's letter:
Hey you guys.I just got through reading all my notes... and I cried even though I didn't during striping. I guess it's only when I read "it's finally striping 06!" ten thousand times that I finally realised... and it finally sunk in that our term has come to an end - our batch is no longer a present part of rgguides. I felt really touched by all your notes - and they were all very very very sweet. ahahah you guys described me in such a positive light. You guys mostly said that you were thankful for me being that high loud presence - but what you might not know is that I'm only like that when you guys are around.YOU MAKE IT SO.You make it possible.You are the ones who make it possible for me to go through these 4 years, rural hike, open house, cca o, AA!!!, urban hike, interugday... etc. YOU ARE THE ONES WHO ALLOW ME TO SMILE MY WAY THROUGH ALL THE HARDSHIPS AND TRIBULATIONS WE WENT THROUGH.
by the way.THANK YOU RAIN. You just had to make your presence felt today.Batch06 you thank me for being positive. But the truth is that I have to thank YOU GUYS for being the ones who bring that smile to my face. THANKYOU FOR THESE FOUR YEARS OF MADNESS, HIGHNESS, LOVE LOVE AND ALOT OF LOVE!If I had a choice - I would go through all these again. But what Krystal told me is right - it'll never be the same even if we turned back time. and Athena said we should not cry because it's ended, we should smile because it happened - and that's right too. But it's so hard to think to know that we no longer have this time together on wednesdays and fridays. I will miss the guides table, the guides room, the roll call, everything and anything and most of all YOU GUYS BATCH06! If I ever had another chance I would not want to miss getting to know you guys for anything in the world. You are such a big part of my life - if I can say it -
YOU GIVE ME MY STRENGTH. Hey you guys. Thank you so much... I'll never to able to repay you guys.I just hope we can retain this friendships that we have forged - through all the tough times - I will NEVER forget how we bonded through rushing to prepare the campfire in the hall, how me and cherylwong GONGGIL was quite quite lost at MCing at first. How Yijun and I listened to that talk by Yiwen backstage before AA and I felt like crying. How you sang rising sun with me backstage, GONGGIL!!!! hahaha! How me and sarah always walk about aimlessly at orchard hoho. How we argued and cursed ronaldo KRYSTAL! How we prepared for PGA - so hard so irritating so fulfilling to have done all that together. And now best of luck to the 5 candidates remaining - GOOD LUCK!!! : DDDDDDDDHow everything happened seems so fast - everything's in a blur. I think the entire reality of a life without you my dearest BATCH06 has not sunk in yet. All I can hope for is that we keep these bonds. (((: ahhaah COH was funny. And michelle your note about COH was funny yes it's extremely typical of our batch. Ahahah I really want you guys to know that everything I could do in guides is all due to your presence. Guides has been what I had always looked forward to in a week. EVERYWEEK. Now I don't know how I can live without it. Live without you guys ahaha! Live without blowing at michelle and yijun. (: I know life goes on. And this part of my life may have come to an end, but I want you guys to know that the memories will always remain in the centre of my heart.
cherylw's:
and yeah i think i'll really miss the CLs standing up there screaming at the PLs to fall in in a straight line, and always saying "by now we should not be reminding you to be standing in a straight line", but haha actually i think till now, we still can't do so. XD! i'll miss listening to aileen, krystal, athena and giraffe time as we form horseshoes, how each of them fade away and how another takes over. i'll miss seeing you guys at the guides table just before guides and settling down there. i'll miss going home with weixian, and going somewhere with giraffe and tammie. i'll miss gay-ing around with aileen THE KING and harmonising with charmaine and krystal! i'll miss yijun "HOI-ing" at us when we dont do as she pleases,listening to michelle's airy voice, and athena doing funny and unexpected things. andd many moreee! andd izza my darling PS, odeliaa the patient saint and AHHH..etc.etc.
hmm i have too many things to say but i just can't seem to say it now, but thank you all for your letters, they are all about "let's go to kbox soon" and stuff like that XD, and sarahh, you called me cassandra angeline taylor in my letter i wanted to faint. that's giraffe, jang seng! XD yeahh and thanks for putting me in such a good light (as aileen said), it was a major ego boost and i was smiling throughout, until i reached the end, then i broke down into tears.
you guys sang super well today, i'm so proud of you, after numerous attempts at singing, we've finally did it. our batch can sing!!
and without you all i'm going to be is incomplete.*
krystal's:
"she's so lucky, she's a starbut she cry cry cries in her lonely heart thinkingif there's nothing missing in my life,then why do these tears come at night"thank you for being what was missing in my life. my life would not have been complete without you. even though now the tears still come, they are tears of love, joy, and gratitude. thank you batch'06.
and GIRAFFE LOVER'S <3 WHICH MADE ME CRY THE MOST.
ohno everyone i think we're having sec four guides withdrawal symptoms x.x we'll all dehydrate thanks to all the tears we've shed. i just want to thank everybody everybody! for making these four years so memorable. from rural hike (i think that's like THE starting point of everything) to open house to ccao to striping last year to camp to AA to PGA to urban hike to striping farewell!
i just wanted to say i never started peeling oranges with my bare hands until rural hike at the orange station, but now i peel them all the time.
i never found bedsheeting folding and jam cooking and washing shoes so enjoyable and fun until i did them with you all for homemaker's badge.
i never knew i can listen to a song and dance so many times without getting sick of the song - just because i'm dancing with you people.
i never knew roll call could be so painfully agonizing trying not to laugh listening to the first coy PLs being niao-ed at by jiaying not to laugh and tuck in your shirts and pull up your socks and looking at michelle with her funny face taking attendance and yijun always walking around singing jj's songs for some funny reason.
i never knew i could feel so lost just without anyone of you. when the evil insect bit yijun during camp and made you cry so terribly i just cried too it was so terrible. and i never could have survived camp without all of you, everyone staying up so late and waking up so early to make breakfast.
i never knew doing proposals were so exciting, and i never opened my gmail the first thing when i got home, until we started planning rural hike.
i never found firelighting and tent-pitching and emergency shelter and rope ladder building and pioneering so accomplishing until we all passed pioneer badge together.
i never found banner painting and structure tying so enjoyable, until i did it with you all.
i never knew the guides room was so lovable until i became qm with krystal and athena and the three of us shortened our lifespan inside the fumigated room by twenty years.
i never knew guides songs could be so touching until i sang it with you all.
i never knew i could cry singing a song, until i was singing with you all.
i never knew guides sessions could be so fun, i never knew footdrill could be so exciting.
i never knew i loved you all so much. but now i know.
thankyou each and every single one of you for everything you've done. it is you all who make guides what it is - one big family full of love, fun, happiness, and, of course, rain. and i'm thankful for every single one of you, all the love, and for every single drop of rain which made us who we are today.
LOVE batch '06.
AND ATHENA'S:
when i first became a guide in sec1, i was thinking, "oh my god, wat madness made me sign up for this?" in sec2, i was thinking, "i still think i should have joined another cca." in sec3, i was thinking,"this batch is getting better than i thought, although some ppl might be a little retarded. i'm beginning to love the ppl here."
in sec4, i'm thinking, "has it already been 4 years? but i really love these ppl as retarded as they may be, as uncoordinated they may be, i don't want to leave them. they gave me the support and encouragement when i most needed it. they were there to catch my fall, they were there to make me smile. to make me cry.. they created the most unforgettable memories for me, they made me smile the most, some of them were those who i could trust with my life. they had the faith in me to make them look glam on AA. these ppl were who i called true friends, friends who gave me the confidence to do things i never thought i would, i was allowed to be myself around them. i always thought that crying during singing was wimpy, only when i sang with them, that was when i realised why ppl cried. it never occured to me that i would miss them so much, it never occured to me that i would come to love them so much. but now that i do, i don't wanna leave them, they were the best thing that happened to me. " struture tying, firelighting, outdoor cooking, pioneering, making jam, making beds, sewing, and everything that we did in guides, never seemed so fun until i did it with you all.. you all made everything seemed fun.. because we did it as a batch. the batch would not have been complete without each one of you, it would not have been as special. like i said, 19 unique individuals, one very special batch. so till today, i thank my lucky stars that i have all of you, thanks to everyone for everything that you have done. its thanks to you that i have such huge family.. one that i can share my tears and my smiles with. we managed to pull of all the challenges that we were put through, TOGETHER. all that matters is that we did it as a batch. it never mattered that we had our aa in the hall, or that it rained during our campfire, or that we had our rural hike in the rain, or that it rained during our striping, all that matters is that we were there for each other, there as a batch to pick each other up. so quoting the wise words of giraffe low ying ling, "i never knew i loved you all so much. but now i know." i will never be able to forget the times that we shared.. i never knew that you all meant so much to me, that i loved you all so much, but after this, i do. THANKS SO MUCH BATCH'06! you all are the sweetest and bestest batchmates qone could ever ask for! loving you all always! <333 THE HOTTEST CHICKS EVER!!!
i really don't know what to say. but i'll miss all of you. each and every single one of you. ): and i'll miss guides. i'll miss going down to the guides table every wednesday and friday. i'll miss everything i did with michelle as CLs. because michelle tan you were the only one who could possibly understand, because you went through the exact same thing as i did.
and i'll miss all the random tags from all the guides at the tagboards YOU ALL MUST CONSTANTLY COME AND GIVE ME TAGS OKAY ):
and i think this year as a CL i learnt more than i had ever learnt in my entire life. i learnt that life isn't always fair, and the best doesn't always win. i learnt about fighting. and being resilient even when no one thought that we could make it. i learn about loving what i do and loving the people i did everything for. ALL YOU GUIDES BETTER APPRECIATE IT OKAY. and never ever say you hate guides because that's the one thing that michelle and i hate hearing/ seeing on blogs because we really worked very hard for everyone, especially the SEC TWOS okay.
haha and i never knew i could work so closely with one person aka MICHELLETANHUITENG and not get sick of seeing her/ hearing her voice. THOUGH I GOT SICK OF HER NAGGING hahaa!
and if you want to know how we feel about each batch i think michelle's blog would do fine. because i feel the exact same thing.
sec ones even though we spent the shortest time with you. as michelle says, there will always be this special place in our hearts just for you, because YOU WERE OUR SEC ONES.
sec twos CONTINUE TO WORK HARD. AND MICHELLE AND I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU.
sec three's it's your stage. (funny i remember how we were being told this last year).
sec fours. I LOVE YOU. eight letters. three words. one meaning.
I LOVE YOU GUIDES. even though you consumed my life for a long long while. even though you made me cry buckets and buckets and almost waterfalls of tears! but without GUIDES <3 i would never had gotten to know 126 people. ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY SIX more friends i made because of guides.
because without guides i would never have found out my strengths and weaknesses properly. without guides, i would never have learnt so many life lessons that are just impossible to get from books.
I WILL MISS YOU GUIDES. I WILL MISS BLOGGING ABOUT GUIDES. I WILL MISS BLOG HOPPING AND FINDING OUT HOW THE GUIDES FELT ABOUT THE GUIDES SESSION THAT DAY! I WILL MISS GUIDES TAGGING AT MY TAGBOARD! ): so now i shall reply to tags from all the guides! the telephone! HAHAA okay you don't really count as a guide but well you're guides related! I LOVE YOU <3><
lingmin! well at least you're going for guides next week! I'LL GO BACK AND GIVE YOU A HUG DARLING <3
anonymous! HMM i'm glad my letter made an impact! when i come for guides and visit you all and you see me you can give me a beeg wave and a beeeg smile okay (:
lynnette (: yes CONTINUE TO MAKE DOVE THE BEST BEST PATROL OKAY <33
YILIN (: yes good girl promise to do your best (: and i'll miss you too! and whenever you feel tired of everything or you feel like giving up ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS GIVE ME A TAG/ CALL/ SMS and i'll tell you one hundred reasons why you should ALWAYS LOVE GUIDES and never let the workload turn you off (:
vinna. WO YE HEN AI NI <3 yes and i KNOW that you and bocks will make me proud!
junyi (: THANK YOU (: i'll miss everyone loads too! and you too! HAHAA and i'll remember that you owe me a present :D
michelle tan NEED I SAY MORE. THE PARAGRAPH WAS LONGGGGGG ENOUGH <3
shimin! hello darling (: yupp don't be so sad about changing patrols YOU CAN ALWAYS COMBINE PATROLS (: JIAYOU (:
and haha BOB! you know I LOVE YOU. and i must really really thank you for listening to me complain and complain and complain about everything haha and for us asking you all sorts of funny questions like how to make our guides more disciplined and stuff and for being such a nice person to lean on and hug!
and JOLYNKHOO i love you too darling (: haha you must have been the non-guides person who heard most of my grievances and musings! THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU (:
and jiakang too haha! <3!
ohno i'll really feel so sad if i have no more guide-y tags to reply ):